Being Positively Forced to Slow Down

A smile and tears from my parents face as they hear my name pronounced as I walked across the stage, reached for the diploma with my left hand and shook with University’s President with my right, walked off the stage and sat back down.

*Sigh* That moment just happened three weeks ago… yes, it’s been awhile. Not to mention, it’s been three weeks of being officially unemployed. I’ve been overwhelmed with so many thoughts, realizations, negativities, cravings, dreams, and plans with this kind of great transition in life. And the chain reaction after I allow myself to dash against it? I got sick.

One time, I wonder why I got sick that I no longer have so many things to do and to think about. Unlike in my college years, where I've always been this kind of girl whose plans are already laid out and being doodled in the planner. I guess my body is just not used to it- of not doing anything.

Or probably, I neglect to give a healthy dose of self-care. I must admit that my life right now probably strikes under wanton exhilaration, boredom, agonizing moments, self-actualization and some room of fun and laughter.

As I deliberate, maybe this was just all due to my actions and decision which leads me to stress and negative thinking. I allowed myself to be preoccupied with unproductive emotions and thoughts. That somehow, Newton’s third law could give that right justification- For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

I ponder again as I read this powerful message from Alldevotions.com

Illness is often a sign that there are needs you are not taking care of. Sometimes your body gets sick so that you are forced to slow down and become aware of the messages of your heart and the desires of your spirit. Only when you step outside on the daily treadmill, can you attune to these more subtle inner callings. Don’t wait to get sick before listening to these important inner messages.

This holds so true. This stress that I’m experiencing right now just creates barriers on what I should be doing; a detrimental to my physical, mental and emotional health.

I’m thinking too much about the future that I miss out the great moments that unveiling right before use. I became too anxious that I forget to forgive and love myself. And that is probably what I missed out.

And so right now, I need to invigorate my life, set strategies that will enable to focus; to regain my lost soul and energy to its normal bound; And to cast all burdens and worries to the Lord. But how do I start? if I figured it how it would definitely be on my next blog post.