Post Graduation Blues
I just bid farewell to the structured life I used to.
The moment I moved my tassel to the right side of my cap, an excitement-anxiety creeps in through my veins enabling my heart to beat faster. Like is this for real? Am I ready to jump into the corporate world?
I'm overwhelmed with sporadic thoughts and uncertainties of what lies ahead. It is so nerve wrecking for we used to follow this kind of educational ladder (grade school-high school- college) but now that I've finally reached with this last step, I felt like I’m on the edge of the cliff and has no clue where to land and the reality just slowly sinks in that I may not be ready as I thought I'd be.
Though I have plans for graduate school or take some educational courses to enable me to teach in the mere future these are not on the top my list as of the moment for I need to find opportunities for career development and growth. So what now after college?
Mind you all that this post doesn’t merely apply to all fresh grads. Either way, we are driven by different goals and priorities in life and so continue to carve the way you wanted it to be. I, on the other hand, just find it confusing which road to take in after.
Anyway, going back, I find lucky for my friends who just got hired, those who already established their own business, managing their family business or even work for the company that they really want; those who are pursuing their passion; planning to take graduate or law school. While here I am, for some way around, introspecting between doing the things I wished I could have done before or conformed what society thinks for fresh graduate-to instantly find have job.
My mind and physical body began to follow and slowly adapting the realms of this so-called real life and I’ve been through creating cover letter and resumes, attending seminars on how to prepare for an interview, partake into job fairs, got interviewed by some companies, spending countless time checking phone or email for follow up yet end up fretting and clueless for why things didn't go along the way.
While I was on the midst of outlining my resume, again and again, pondering from another company to the next, I didn't know why but there seems to be a gravitational pull inside of me that seems to hinder me from doing as such.
Then lots of questions appear, Am I really emotionally, physically and intellectually ready to face the conduits of life? Am I certain on what field of business or marketing should I partake or what company to work, contribute and grow for? Am I motivated by my willpower to work for my own benefit, for my family, being motivated by money or due to the pressure of the society? If I got hired, would I be that productive despite those hundredths random thoughts running through my head, setting forth for the things I supposed to do now that I’m free from academic responsibilities in college. Should I really need to rush things up?
To be honest, I find it difficult to answer each and every question I made.
Well, what if I’ll follow my instincts? To close the tabs of those job hunting sites in the meantime and finally unravel the things I wanted to do. Though I got a bit of fear for maybe this is just another piece of my lazy thinking yet I believe this is a good way and time to start loving and finding time for myself. This will be for the first time in my life not having any academic duties so I should appreciate and live for the moment.
I’m within the possibilities of being swallowed by this dark shadow letting me just stay in my comfort zone or stand with this notion that this will not be forever, that there will come a day that I’ll jump over that cliff (the one I mentioned above) with less fear of unknown plus a courage to finally set and have clear vision on what to achieve in life. I’m not thinking of some magical happenings at the end of the rainbow, I’ll just have to prove that everything will be worthwhile.
So yes, Carpe Diem. YOLO. Me-time as I would say. Now I’m on an adventure of getting new perspective and journey in life. I set no exact date, place or time as to when to stop searching for this lost star. I'm not sure what failure will mean for me (ain't aiming for that tho) thus, the succeeding posts and such realizations at the end are something to look forward to.
At the end, is it a time well spent? Or a time wasted? With dreams, perseverance, and hope for a good future and for myself, I’ll lift everything to God. Let it go, let it be.
Now, I long to live a more exciting life.
I'm overwhelmed with sporadic thoughts and uncertainties of what lies ahead. It is so nerve wrecking for we used to follow this kind of educational ladder (grade school-high school- college) but now that I've finally reached with this last step, I felt like I’m on the edge of the cliff and has no clue where to land and the reality just slowly sinks in that I may not be ready as I thought I'd be.
Though I have plans for graduate school or take some educational courses to enable me to teach in the mere future these are not on the top my list as of the moment for I need to find opportunities for career development and growth. So what now after college?
Mind you all that this post doesn’t merely apply to all fresh grads. Either way, we are driven by different goals and priorities in life and so continue to carve the way you wanted it to be. I, on the other hand, just find it confusing which road to take in after.
Anyway, going back, I find lucky for my friends who just got hired, those who already established their own business, managing their family business or even work for the company that they really want; those who are pursuing their passion; planning to take graduate or law school. While here I am, for some way around, introspecting between doing the things I wished I could have done before or conformed what society thinks for fresh graduate-to instantly find have job.
My mind and physical body began to follow and slowly adapting the realms of this so-called real life and I’ve been through creating cover letter and resumes, attending seminars on how to prepare for an interview, partake into job fairs, got interviewed by some companies, spending countless time checking phone or email for follow up yet end up fretting and clueless for why things didn't go along the way.
While I was on the midst of outlining my resume, again and again, pondering from another company to the next, I didn't know why but there seems to be a gravitational pull inside of me that seems to hinder me from doing as such.
Then lots of questions appear, Am I really emotionally, physically and intellectually ready to face the conduits of life? Am I certain on what field of business or marketing should I partake or what company to work, contribute and grow for? Am I motivated by my willpower to work for my own benefit, for my family, being motivated by money or due to the pressure of the society? If I got hired, would I be that productive despite those hundredths random thoughts running through my head, setting forth for the things I supposed to do now that I’m free from academic responsibilities in college. Should I really need to rush things up?
To be honest, I find it difficult to answer each and every question I made.
Well, what if I’ll follow my instincts? To close the tabs of those job hunting sites in the meantime and finally unravel the things I wanted to do. Though I got a bit of fear for maybe this is just another piece of my lazy thinking yet I believe this is a good way and time to start loving and finding time for myself. This will be for the first time in my life not having any academic duties so I should appreciate and live for the moment.
I’m within the possibilities of being swallowed by this dark shadow letting me just stay in my comfort zone or stand with this notion that this will not be forever, that there will come a day that I’ll jump over that cliff (the one I mentioned above) with less fear of unknown plus a courage to finally set and have clear vision on what to achieve in life. I’m not thinking of some magical happenings at the end of the rainbow, I’ll just have to prove that everything will be worthwhile.
So yes, Carpe Diem. YOLO. Me-time as I would say. Now I’m on an adventure of getting new perspective and journey in life. I set no exact date, place or time as to when to stop searching for this lost star. I'm not sure what failure will mean for me (ain't aiming for that tho) thus, the succeeding posts and such realizations at the end are something to look forward to.
At the end, is it a time well spent? Or a time wasted? With dreams, perseverance, and hope for a good future and for myself, I’ll lift everything to God. Let it go, let it be.
Now, I long to live a more exciting life.
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